I N S O M N I A C | X.

Once in a while, when I'm bored (or sleepy), I switch my ipod to shuffle and listen to the random songs in my music collection. As any ipod aficionado (and large mp3 collector) will tell you, this is usually a mixed bag. On one hand you've got the soon to be radio classics that help a hard day or a long drive down the expressway glide by. Then you have the noisy, cheesy, and oft-times horrible pop music festering in your collection. In the same way, my life so far, as a true adult in the real world, has been this re-mixed. One day complete and utter bliss. The other, full of conflict and spite. But, maybe like the chinese curse that almost dictates my life (which what someone posted on my first private blog) states ---'May your life be interesting.'--this random shuffle keeps us engaged, listening to sweet crescendos and the haunting reverb of songs that make up our lives.

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One song that completely reflects where I am right now (my current conflict) is the cheeky, sunny, but somewhat shallowy-vague song "More than This" by the 10,000 Maniacs (Version 2.0 without Natalie Merchant!). It's helping put some of the things in my life right now in perspective - the haunting refrain says everything that can be said....and everything I don't want to admit.

I could feel at the time
There was no way of knowing
Fallen leaves in the night
Who can say where they're blowing
As free as the wind
And hopefully learning
Why the sea on the tide
Has no way of turning
More than this
You know there is nothing
More than this
Tell me one thing
More than this
You know there is nothing
It was fun for a while
There was no way of knowing
Like a dream in the night
Who can say where we're going
No care in the world
Maybe I'm learning
Why the sea on the tide
Has no way of turning
More than this
You know there is nothing
More than this
Tell me one thing
More than this
You know there is nothing...